Feb. 7, Friday
Skipped a day, arghhhh medicines... Too strong they were. Still feeling dizzy...
Anyway
today it was a different day altogether. I'm missing my Gurgaon home
already. Trying a dating app n already frustrated with too many texts.
Why the hell I installed it. People there are annoying and strange,
really strange. Hope I'll be able to divert my mind and move on from
this pain soon. I know its not a right approach but I don't see any
other way out.
But man... *Look what to did to me...* This song is playing in my mind on repeat now.
Feb. 9, Sunday Morning...
In
this phase of missing him all the time, don't know that I am doing to
myself. This was never me and this is not right either. The only good
thing happened so far is finding a good friend who can sit with me
listen to good music and all my nonsense talks. I found a friend as
weird as me but hey... I still miss you. And I still wonder why u did
this to me...
Feb. 9, Midnight
My
feet are cold, my head is burning and it feels like a hot case... My
hands are numb... I'm falling deep deep and deep in some darkness and...
Felt helpless... Feels like creepy high fever but I know its not
fever... A tear rolled out from my eyes and I slept...
This
was me couple of hours ago... I just woke up at 2.30am and realized
that I should not have missed the medcines doctor prescribed me the
other day.. Hell... What I've done to myself.. I was a happy soul... A
fun filled firl.. And I'm still the one but these anxiety attacks are
killing the real me... I wish I had never met him.. I wish...
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